Sick and Fucking tired

Ok so this is sort of a rant, mostly due to the fact that I'm fed up with stupid ass people and I need to get this shit out before I snap off on someone and choke the shit outta them.

I'm just getting so damn tired of dealing with ignorant ass people, and for those who don't understand I will do my best to explain. In the last few years I've sat back and watch folks blame society and others for their life's lackings' and mistakes and I've had enough. What burns me the most is I see it mostly from my own people.. and when I say that I mean the Black and Hispanic communities. What the fuck is wrong with you people. Grow the fuck up and start taking some damn responsibility for your own fucking actions.

If you're jobless and living in a run down ass area and can't provide for your family, stop blaming everyone and everything else and start looking at yourself. It's you who have the power over your situation and ONLY YOU who can change it for the better or for the worse. Get off your ass and do something instead of expecting everyone else to do it for you.

I get so tired of hearing "I can't" or "it's to hard" or "they won't let me".. save your bullshit reasons for someone who gives a flying fuck. You can you're just to damn lazy to try.

There is no reason to stay in the Ghetto unless you want to. There are plenty of opportunities out there to better yourself and make a way for you and your family.

Stop thinking you're to good to work for mim wage... its a fucking job. Get off the damn system and try. Stop trying to be some damn balla when you don't even have a fucking job. Why the fuck do you need a $30,000 car when you live in a one room apartment that's rent controlled because you get a damn check every month from the state? Take the fucking bus you asshole and sell that fucking car so you can actually do something productive in this life.

I hate shiftless bastards I don't give a damn if you are the same race as I am. Stop making excuses for being lazy and worthless and do something productive. Educate yourselves, work to improve the community instead of destroy it. Teach your children not to be hoods and thugs, and that being a fucking hoe isn't acceptable.

Grow the fuck up and do something worth a damn or put a gun to your head and remove yourself from society so that we don't have to deal with your ignorant ass anymore.

Holiday behavior

With holidays and such comming up it got me to thinking. Everyone gets so worked up this time of the year. Worked up over being with family or money or just the festivities of it all. People are a little nicer to eachother, or have a slight skip in their step. I wonder though why is it this only seems to last for a few months. Why can't people be this way toward eachother longer? What is it about holidays that makes ya wanna be nice. I mean hell if you're a jackass all year and then for 3 months are a saint, why? What caused the sudden change? If its just because you think that you should be nice during this time, why now and not all year? Ok so maybe I'm nuts and people are suppose to be like this. I just figure if you're gonna be a little shit then be that way all year, stop confusing folks and changing up for a few months just to go back.

Real love

I know many people have been in relationships where they are told that they are loved by the other person then it turns out to be a bunch of bull. Sadly I know that feeling too. I had gotten to the point where I doubted very seriously if I would ever actually know what it was like to be loved by someone else. To my amazement it happened. He came out of no where and showed me that love doesn't hurt or make you sad but lifts you up and holds you. He showed me that not everyone is here to tear you down, some people are here to lift you up. He loved me when I didn't even love myself, now that is some powerful love. His love doesn't come with conditions or stipulations, he just loves me for me. My faults, my problems, my crazy weirdness, through it all he still loves me. He doesn't love me inspite of my faults he loves me beacuse they are me. He doesn't try and change me or make me to be something he wants. I'm accpeted for who I am. I know that if it ever came to it he'd lay his life down for mine. This my friends is what real love is all about. Its such a powerful thing love is. It breaks down walls and brings together people. It gives us hope and light in the midst of our darkness. It by far is the most wonderful thing there is.

Sick and Tired

I get so damn tired of people who think they know something or someone passing judgement. I get so damn tired of folks pretending to be someone's friend just to turn around and use them later. What the fuck is wrong with these people? Why is it you feel the need to poision the world with your very exsistance? I'm tired of having to defend my beliefs and thoughts because some closed minded biggot doesn't agree with them. Who the fuck died and made you god. Fuck, people sit and pass judgement on somoene based off a fucking screen name. Are you fucking kidding me? Since when did a damn screen name start defining who the hell a person was? So I guess its now a crime to have a fucking imagination? There are crazy ass people who sit and think that the internet is all there is in life and then get pisssed when the people on it don't bow to their every fucking whim. I'm so tried of people thinking that I have to blow sunshine and flowers up their ass in order to be a nice person or one that has something valid to say. Fuck I swear I'm really starting to just hate people. Its probably a good thing I'm not in charge of things around here. We'd have a lot less people in this country if I were. Ok I feel better, thats my rant for the day.

Shadows

I walk along the shadows oblivious to those around me
Never stepping into the light
I stay hiding under the cover of darkness
A creature of the night
I hear the whispers of others
And see their evil glares
Their words are pierced in hatred
Because they have no idea I’m there
I am always ever watchful
I hear what is in their hearts
Always in the shadows
Hidden by the dark
I see them on the other side
And give a passing nod
I watch my children closely
You see I am their god.