How long

Sometimes life is funny
in ways that seem ok,
but then you have your moments
when that just all goes away.
In all my hopes and wishes,
questions and requests,
I get retarded heartaches,
and pain with every breath.
Why is it so hard for love to find me,
have I done something that very wrong?
Lord, I don't get it
how long for me Lord, how long . . .
All I want is someone to love me
someone to show me they care
I thought I found that in you
found someone who would be there . . .
was I wrong for loving you?
Am I wrong for how I feel?
Do you really love me
tell me what's really the deal?
How long do I have to wait
for you to truly see
how long do I have to hurt
before you truly love me?